the helplessness of it all.

theres a lot on this world that you cant control. we all know this. but there is a lot that you normally can control. everyday choices blah blah blah you get the idea. but the worst feeling of all is not being able to help in a situation that you normally could. separation is a cold bitch. whether it be from your loved one, or from your family, or from your friends. the feeling,the guilt of being stuck with absolutely no way to contribute to the cause. knowing if things had gone how they should have, then youd be there right now. helping a friend. or hugging a loved one, whatever. but again, this is life. shit doesnt go as planned. things dont always work out how you wanted. but like i said before, and like im going to say a whole hell of a lot more. you gotta get the fuck over it, do what you can with what you have, no matter the situation. just keep your head up, think of the future and keep your head on straight. dont let anything let you stray from your goals, as much as that may hurt. so if thats the answer, then idk the question. even da vinci didnt know it all.

Duece

life isnt like its portrayed in the movies, or like what your parents said its goings to be when you were little. Its difficult, annoying, full of bullshit, and nothing can describe it. just take it for what it is and keep moving on. dont stop for anyone, or anything. all you can do is take someone on the ride and make the best of it. leave whats in the past, in the past. learn from your mistakes, and move on to the future. i know these first few posts are nothing about what the title of this page is. but thats neither here nor there. my point is life is a fuckin bitch. but thats the way is it! so like i said. take it for what it is, and keep on moving. you can ask why as much as you want. and more often then not, the answer isnt going to be the one you want. but thats the way of the world kids. your future is yours to paint. so you might as well paint a van gogh.

Number 1ne

After another sleepless night, i once again find myself staring at a wall while typing this very sentence. i continue to wonder how the fuck am i going to get into college. I am 21, no job, i dont really know what im good at. i think going to college will help shape my life. get me on my way to my future. but then again, why must one to to college to make something of themselves? zuckerberg said fuck college, ill make facebook! so maybe i can do the same? but then again that is something a 20something would say. easier said then done. by far. idk where ill be in 5 years, fuck idk where ill be tomorrow. people, well kids, nowadays have these nonsense notions of richs and fame and having it all come to them on a gold platter. thats bullshit. in my mind if you want something you need to grab it by the balls and take it. but then again, thats just me. it just seems as of late it really doesnt matter what I think. im just another kid from florida speaking his mind. but one thing is for sure. I will make my mark. i dont ask for much. i dont ask for millions of dollars (although i cant say that wouldnt be great) i dont ask for fame. all i ask is for once in my life, somebody look at something i wrote or said, and say WOW. just a little appreciation. so after all this insomniatic writing and made up words, i pose this question. Why not me?